Alice spent some time with her grandparents this weekend and Matt’s mom texted us this photo of our girl to let us know that they were having a great time. I cannot stop looking at this photo and feeling all the feelings: My firstborn. She’s getting so big! Learning so much. Her hair is growing. She’s so beautiful. So sweet. I love her so.

And…

I miss her.

It sounds weird to say you miss someone you see all the time. It’s just, now we have Elaine and she requires a lot of my time and attention.  Understandably so, E is just over two months old. I still spend as much time as I possibly can with Alice, but a lot of it is spent holding the baby and watching from the sidelines.  During this phase of our lives, Alice and her Daddy have gotten so much more quality time together and I know it’s a good thing and I’m so grateful.

I’m sure this isn’t a novel feeling for parents who have more than one child but its a concern I have – Am I giving both of my children enough attention?!  I want to play and talk with Alice and I want to nurture my newborn.  And I do both, but I can’t do them both fully at the same time.  In the end I know I can just do my best and hope and pray that my efforts end up being  “good enough.”

Motherhood.  Babies… all the love.


A couple weeks before my maternity leave ended, I got a wild hair and took both girls to the park. By myself. This might not be ground breaking stuff, but I gotta tell you, I felt like super mom for those 20 minutes.

It was right after Alice had gotten a couple routine vaccines and I thought it’d be nice for her to do something fun.  So I drove to a local park with lots of shade, a gate (to prevent your child from escaping) and mini play ground equipment – perfect for toddlers. I was able to carry Alice on one hip and Elaine’s car seat carrier in the crook of my other arm from the car to the playground.  (See, super mom.)

Alice loved it!

Elaine tolerated it.

Once I got home I realized that I had accidentally turned on some weird filter on my iPhone camera. I was initially annoyed but then decided I liked the way the photos turned out after all.

 


Running errands with my first newborn child I made sure to bring along a fully stocked diaper bag.  Contents included:  10 or so diapers, a full package of wipes, an extra change of clothes, changing mat, an extra blanket, extra burp cloth, toys (what?! ha!), extra pacifiers, so on and so forth…  (Keep in mind that in her carseat she was covered with a blanket, a burp cloth sits on top of that, and she had a paci in her mouth – the extras were, you know, just in case!)

I tucked my wallet and phone into the diaper bag and went without a purse.

Second child.  I pack into my purse a changing mat and a cute little pouch containing a travel size amount of wipes and 2-3 diapers.  She is in her carseat with a blanket, burp cloth (if I remember the burp cloth, a blankie can do the trick in a pinch) and her paci.   I figure if we need extras, we are minutes away from home. (Also if there is an instance where she actually needs a change of clothes, I will want to go home anyway.  You can’t really get baby cleaned up properly in a gross public restroom! Just ew!)

Diaper bag is now relegated to longer periods of time away from home – usually with the grandparents.  It also serves as a baby overnight bag when we go out of town.

 


This blog is no stranger to my annual birthday wish list. Well with the exception of last year – I didn’t make one for my last birthday for some reason. This year it’s back on! Here’s my birthday wish list with a couple extravagant things because it IS a wish list after all.

1. Fitbit  - this is really my top request. I’ve been working to lose the weight I gained with my two back to back pregnancies and, really, have been trying to just be healthier overall. In addition to #31OctMiles I’ve been trying to make healthier food choices and do little workouts at home. The process is slow and steady, but thankfully I’ve seen some progress which is always encouraging!  I’ve heard good things from friends and read good reviews about the Fitbit online.  Seems like something that will help me stay on track.

2. Sentimental jewelry. I would love some sentimental jewelry that’s delicate, feminine, and subtle. Pieces that remind me of my favorites (my hubby and my babies) would be top notch.  I’m not much of a bracelet kind of girl but love earrings, necklaces, and rings.  Here are a few faves I came across online: three initial necklace in gold, trio of gold stacked rings to represent our past, present, and future (can’t help the mushiness!), love the idea of a personalized handwritten engraved necklace with maybe my loves initials…?

3. Elements Massage Wellness Package. Okay this one’s a little more extravagant but would really make an excellent gift (maybe for Christmas?!). A couple weeks back I was in a world of hurt. My back felt like one giant knot due to a combo of picking up babies, bad posture while nursing, and the tension brought on by lots of stress. My mother in law kindly agreed to watch the baby one afternoon so I could go and get a massage. It was so last minute & the only place I could find an available appointment was at Elements Massage. To be perfectly honest my expectations were low because my understanding is that this is a massive chain-store kind of spa and so it seemed kind of hokey to me. When I met my masseuse, a short & portly woman who seemed older than middle aged, my expectations sank even lower. Well, it turned out to be one of the best massages I’ve ever received and my back still feels one million times better. So shame on me & my preconceived assumptions! The wellness package allows you to receive one massage a month at a discounted rate, which ONE MASSAGE A MONTH?!  Sounds ah-mazing if you ask me.

And that’s it!  I really can’t want for much this year (or should I ever want for much?).  What would be on your current wish list?

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October is a big month. It’s my birthday month and the 21st marks my last day of maternity leave. I have mixed emotions about going back to work, but that is an entirely different story for another time perhaps.

Anyways, on the first day of the month I was mulling over things and a wild brain idea entered my head – I should run one mile everyday in October.  Interesting…

See, for the better part of the last four weeks I have been trying to be healthier. I have been eating better and  taking long walks with one of the girls in the BOB Stroller.
I have also been doing a few exercise things at home when I’m crunched for time or even the opposite, when I have a little bit of extra time.  Jogging is something I have definitely wanted to ease myself back into and I have gone on probably two jog/walks, that to be quite honest, were really just long walks that started out with the briefest of a jog.

Running just one mile a day would certainly help get me back into jogging. It would be challenging in that I haven’t been running for pretty much the past two years (back to back pregnancies), yet the short distance would make it attainable.

As the day continued I liked the idea more and more, but wasn’t exactly able to get out for a jog because E is still too young to ride in stroller while jogging and Matt was at work.  No babysitter = no jogging at this point in time.  With that, I pretty much told myself that this hair brained idea just wasn’t going to happen.

Well Matt got home shortly after 5pm and we did the dinner time/bedtime routine with the girls.  The run a mile a day in October idea was still there though, rolling around in the back of mind, but the day was slipping away.  It just wasn’t going to happen I kept telling myself.  Then it was 720 pm, the girls were asleep, and it wasn’t quite dark out.  A little more hemming and hawing before I told myself to just go for it.  With my sneakers laced up I announced that I was gonna run a “quick mile.”   Matt was surprised but said “Go get ‘em Tiger” as I headed out the door.

I’m glad I went for it.  I’m on Day #3 and already it hasn’t been without it’s challenges to get those three miles down in the books.  I would like to be able to run every single mile, and I’m going to try my hardest to make that happen.  But the reality is that I’m a mom to two small littles, I have a family, and I’m about to go back to work.  Somedays it may have to be a long walk with the BOB  because there’s no one to watch the kiddos or, worst case scenario, there might be some days where it just cannot happen.  Now that I’ve started I really, really would like to complete this little personal challenge, but if a wrench gets thrown in I’m just going to do my best and start again the next day.

As a bit of motivation I’m posting an Instagram picture of my running shoes everyday with the hashtag #31OctMiles.  I realize it’s day 3, but if you want to join in… please do!!!  The more the merrier.

 


Recently I was scrolling through my Instagram and I was momentarily dismayed – I’d become THAT person who only posts pictures of her children. Had I become someone I did not want to be? Just a mom? Just a wife? Someone who has lost herself in motherhood and family life? Boo!

Then I pulled myself together and gave myself a pep talk. (I seem to be giving myself a lot of pep talks these days). The fact of the matter is that I am a wife and mom. And yes, that’s pretty much what defines my life these days. It has to! I have a lovable yet super busy 16 month old and a small and sweet 7 week old.

There’s the essential childcare duties: diaper changes, figuring out what’s for dinner, (also breakfast, lunch, & snacks), baths, bedtime routines… There’s also play time, reading, singing, learning, and lots of hugs and kisses. Day after day.

So maybe I have become that person who posts mostly pictures of my kids. It’s natural! Motherhood occupies 90% of my time these days. Being a mother is a privilege and I’m thankful to be known as Mama to these wonderful tiny people! !!!!

Of course, I am still “me”. I still have my personal interests, hobbies, and dreams. I don’t have a lot of time for them right now, but hopefully someday I will.

In the meantime I’m going to try to squeeze in a few of my own personal interests in the rare pockets of time I do get to myself: learn how to sew, paint something, write, workout…

The rest of the time I’ll be a mom, posting pictures of my kids and focusing on the good things going on in this phase of our lives. I mean, can you even handle the matching outfits? I barely can.


As if you didn’t know, it’s all about babies around here! :)  I just want to say that you guys are the sweetest!  Thank you, thank you, thank you for your kind comments on my past couple posts.  I can’t tell you how reassuring it is to feel like you are being heard and also understood.

Things are chugging along around here, we have our good moments and our share of rough moments as well.  Of course.

Today has been a good day.  (Read: today naps have been successful).  The raincloud mobile I made for E is a hit, she loves it and happily watches it go round and round.  She’s usually content for about three complete cranks of the wind up lullaby, which, I think, is pretty great for a 5 week old.

Our current downside is that we seem to have found ourselves in a pickle…our original plan for childcare for E has fallen through!  (PANIC MODE!)  I’m scheduled to return to work in 5 weeks and have been on the phone all day trying to find a suitable place for her to go.  Obviously not just any ole place will do, and I’m big on personal recommendations.  Nothing has come through for us yet…but hopefully SOON! #workingmamaproblems Am I right?

In other random news, I love seeing E in Alice’s old clothes.  It’s just so fun to pull out a past favorite outfit and put it on our littlest little.  Hooray! Adorable tiny clothes get a second life!

Speaking of baby clothes, yesterday I ran into Sam’s Club and couldn’t resist buying the girls MATCHING outfits while I was there.  They’re just simple Carter’s play sets, but still.  The adorableness of matching outfits on my babies is almost too much. And so it begins and you know it won’t stop until they can put up a big enough fight.

E is waking up from one of her naps so I must stop filling you in on the randomness of my days, but I’d love to hear what’s new in your world.

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